Well, it's official. I have gone over a week without any candy. You may be thinking big deal, who cares, or anyone can do that. I'm here to say it's been one of the hardest weeks of my life. It is amazing how the humans body works. How addiction creeps into people's brains, stomachs, and lives.
For me, my love affair with candy started as a child. My grandmother has beautiful pink crystal candy dishes and what better way to show them off than full of candy? They were always out as a child and full of delicious candies and chocolates. Where most parents and grandparents hide the extra sweets somewhere up high, my grandmother specifically put all the extra goodies in the floor level cupboard "incase you want something other than what's in the candy dishes". She always sent us home with sandwich baggies of candy and treats and still to this day I think the only reason why I love candy corn is for it's nestalgic memory of eating our of those pink crystal dishes around Halloween at her house!
As like his mother, my father also contributed to my sweet sweet addiction. We didn't have much growing up. Usually dinner consisted of grilled chicken and my dad's version of "vegetables" which were corn and mashed potatoes. However, there was always room for candy. My dad is not a big planner and thus we went to the grocery almost everyday. This was great for me because he'd usually always let me get a candy and when I was really lucky and there was a 3 for $1 sale I'd get 3 candy bars. You can imagine the amount of candy consumption that filled my childhood. Between my grandma and my dad's frequent trips to the store, I was always satisfied...and addicted!
The whole point of this blog is that I have realized my mood, panic attacks, stressed demeanor, and many of my struggles emotionally throughout my life are directly correlated to what I eat. Whether it's been alcohol, candy, or other vises, I have been consciously and subconsciously trying to control my unexplained emotional swings my whole life. This blog is my struggle, journey, and adventure with consumption.
